December 11, 2010
i don't take to many naps but did yesterday and was jolted awake by the touch of someone pushing on my thigh just above my knee. there was no one there! it felt like a cat puts its paws on me but it was stronger than that, felt like a push and then i was jolted awake to no one there and nothing important to do.
i have been having a lot of vivid profound dreams about conflict and things i never remember 5 minutes after i wake up. they are chaotic turmoil dreams that reflect my need to break through to a new plateau. if i cannot come to grips with them and learn the message they have, i will never be able to break through my walls that hold me back.